The Darkest Hour

caerys Walsh revelations

(Painting by Caerys Walsh -abstract art contemporary painting canvas. Pinterest)

I pushed you down into the deepest crevice of my soul

For, afraid I was of you, my sparkling pure love.

Your light would shine, or so I felt,

On my ugliness, revealing me for the wretch I am.

 

“Ugly”, they said, “that’s what you are!”

“Love?” They mocked, “Not for you.”

“Prince Charming!” They laughed. “A beggar maybe.”

“Who can nary clothe you, feed you,

Hold a roof above you.”

 

“Marry,” they said. “Dance to our tuneless music.”

“Breathe not,” they ordered, “not a word of our lies.”

“Weep,” they cursed, “but let not the tears flow.”

“Smile to the world,

Show not the pain in your eyes.”

 

This is happiness, they taught me to believe

This is life, they decided for me.

So I danced, wept, smiled, laughed.

Struggling against the strong currents of the sea.

 

For a sea it was, a sea of sorrow

At times calm and serene, at times turbulent

Fighting against the dreams of tomorrow

I tried, I swear, to keep myself afloat.

 

They did not teach that emptiness is also a feeling

A feeling so heavy despite being a void

How would they know?  Poor wretches

Bending under their cross,

They eventually become the cross.

 

Emptiness, yes, a void in my heart

Crushing heavy like lead

Darkness, yes, dense, thick and spreading

Blowing out coldly

The little warmth left.

 

Spreading outwards, creeping silently like a malaise

The hollowness swallowing whole my words and deeds

One day saw I myself in the mirror

“Aah,” I cried, “hollow my eyes, hollow my heart.”

 

But lo and behold!

Out you emerged from your depths!

An ember glowing, a tiny spark

You, my love, refusing to be crushed

Sneaking out playfully from the dark.

 

This time I fanned you, fed you with my milk

You grew up fast, filling every inch of me

This time I refused to chain you

For prisoner you cannot be eternally.

 

Your lightness, your grace,

The tinkling joy that you are

Like air, like water

You flow out when you are free

 

Now my spirit flies, now my heart sings

My eyes see the beauty in every single thing.

My feet take a spring, my love

For they know that

Every dancing step

brings me closer to you.

 

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    caerys Walsh revelations

    (Painting by Caerys Walsh -abstract art contemporary painting canvas. Pinterest)

    I pushed you down into the deepest crevice of my soul

    For, afraid I was of you, my sparkling pure love.

    Your light would shine, or so I felt,

    On my ugliness, revealing me for the wretch I am.

    “Ugly”, they said, “that’s what you are!”

    “Love?” They mocked, “Not for you.”

    “Prince Charming!” They laughed. “A beggar maybe.”

    “Who can nary clothe you, feed you,

    Hold a roof above you.”

    “Marry,” they said. “Dance to our tuneless music.”

    “Breathe not,” they ordered, “not a word of our lies.”

    “Weep,” they cursed, “but let not the tears flow.”

    “Smile to the world,

    Show not the pain in your eyes.”

    This is happiness, they taught me to believe

    This is life, they decided for me.

    So I danced, wept, smiled, laughed.

    Struggling against the strong currents of the sea.

    For a sea it was, a sea of sorrow

    At times calm and serene, at times turbulent

    Fighting against the dreams of tomorrow

    I tried, I swear, to keep myself afloat.

    They did not teach that emptiness is also a feeling

    A feeling so heavy despite being a void

    How would they know? Poor wretches

    Bending under their cross,

    They eventually become the cross.

    Emptiness, yes, a void in my heart

    Crushing heavy like lead

    Darkness, yes, dense, thick and spreading

    Blowing out coldly

    The little warmth left.

    Spreading outwards, creeping silently like a malaise

    The hollowness swallowing whole my words and deeds

    One day saw I myself in the mirror

    “Aah,” I cried, “hollow my eyes, hollow my heart.”

    But lo and behold!

    Out you emerged from your depths!

    An ember glowing, a tiny spark

    You, my love, refusing to be crushed

    Sneaking out playfully from the dark.

    This time I fanned you, fed you with my milk

    You grew up fast, filling every inch of me

    This time I refused to chain you

    For prisoner you cannot be eternally.

    Your lightness, your grace,

    The tinkling joy that you are

    Like air, like water

    You flow out when you are free

    Now my spirit flies, now my heart sings

    My eyes see the beauty in every single thing.

    My feet take a spring, my love

    For they know that

    Every dancing step

    brings me closer to you.

    Très beau. Plein d’amour, d’espoir et de projection sur un nouvel avenir. C’est comme cela que je ressens vos mots.
    Je vous souhaite beaucoup de bonheur 🙂

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